I was just recently asked by a very good friend of mine who knows that I suffer from Anorexia and Bulimia both. She has a birthday arriving soon. I was asked a very difficult question. She has an up coming birthday. It's a milestone.. I'm happy for her. But she honestly does not know me like I thought she did. You don't ask an "anorexic/bulimic" to rise above the Monster just for one day and come out to eat at a party . I don't care if it is the President's birthday. I Will Not Be Attending!!! Come on!! What was she thinking? I'm on the verge of entering a treatment facility yet again and I am asked to attend a party where there is nothing but food and a crowd of people! I know I must understand that a lot of people do not understand EDO's regardless of what type it is. Over eating is now called a type of eating disorder. I don't know much about it other than the fact that my brother had this type of EDO. Binge eating with out purging. He gained up to 500 pounds before he died . He died way to young. Hell, I turn 50 this year. I have gained 5 pounds over the winter so far. I'll be damned if I gain any more 105 is way to heavy for a 5ft 1 in frame. Thanks for letting me vent....I really need to do this...to talk about my hang ups. I love you guys out there who read what I write. I am not ashamed of the fact I am on antidepressants and antiaxiety meds to help me tx. my edo's. I will be back sooner.....a lot sooner than before! I didn't mean to leave you all hanging!
God Bless!
Pam
Hugs to you Pam! I have to admit, I also do not understand, but you are helping me to begin to understand. I don't know the situation, but maybe your friend sees you as much more than your EDO's. I am sure she meant you no harm, but wanted to share in the joyous occasion with such a good friend.
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